Holiday Spirits

What ho, my friends, I come bearing gifts for all! Yes, you guessed it, the gift is my prose; the prose which you have come to look forward to each day, due to my daily update promise, to bring your day to new, uncharted heights. I will say right now that I NEVER go back on a promise. Which is why I have been updating several times in a month, if you're lucky. Well thats all on that subject, lets move on to something new that happened to me recently. Lets take today, for instance.
I'm beginning to lose faith in my brother and his issues he's dealing with. Initially, he was standing ready to receive a loan of some notable sum from me to help pay for his engagement ring, however at the last minute he decided not to rely on my help but instead opt for getting the money from my father. I guess it is nice having all my monies open for eating at el portal many times for this next week, however I still feel off...as if I missed an important bonding opportunity with my brother, who has always been somewhat distant from me since childhood. As if this is some kind of expression as to how uncomfortable he is relying on his brother rather than the parents. I hoped to kindle this trust, as we had been associating much more ever since he came back from an academic year in St. Petersburg.
Well, in any case, I am very satisfied with life at this time. Of course, there could always be more family, more friends, more solitude, but as those factors often conflict, I should simply be thankful for what I have at this time of the year. Goddamn though, its really freaking cold in this house. I'd like to change that, haha.
Almost done with Atlas Shrugged. I know, I can almost hear you say "its about time! you first told us about that in september!" Yeah...After blowing through the first portion the second portion bogged down with excessive philosophical jargon. Slogging through that took some time, in addition, I had found myself working much harder at University this year than I usually do. And, as a result, I received top marks in all my courses. This I suppose is favorable to completing a book quickly, but none the less I would like to move on to another. I believe I will read a simple, trashy novel, possibly a tom clancy, steven king or dean koontz. Getting Shrugged under my belt is great, but I just need some time to relax with what I read for awhile; something I dont fall asleep after reading literally 2 pages. Ah! reading is so amazing. So is Fallout: New Vegas though.
Kind of upset about some of my older friends I havent had the chance to hang with recently. Over the summer I was with mike, zach and leah quite alot, however now they seem to deliberatly ignore or bypass my company. For instance, Mike went to Tron in theaters without even asking me if I might come with. Other than that he just seems to seldom return my calls. I dont know, I may have been a shitty friend throughout the semester, but I've been working my tail off in my course work and really havent spent time with much of anyone. I simply embraced my solitude. Hard to come back to a friendship after four months of virtually no contact, I guess. Oh well...I've done it before, I suppose I'll have to go through the favor song and dance once again, just like after spring semester '10. Buh. Well its been fun talking to you, oh intangible person whom shall never read this, wish me luck in my relationship frustrations. Oh did I mention my romantic illusions? I didint? shucks, well, for another time, I will be off to sleep soon.